I am still on this journey. For those of you who are new - you can read about this journey (Month 3 here and Month 4 here). __________________________________________________________
SO, here I am. It is 2012.
Six months with no color added to my hair. My hairdresser told me to plan for a year transition. This is the halfway point. This is a big one. January brings me another birthday, the one that takes me into my Mid-40s.
Christmas was tough for me. I tend to see the same people day in day out who don't really notice the slow change happening. Yet, the holiday gatherings brought people I do not see all the time together, mostly family, and I felt like eyes were upon me. I was very cautious about what colors I was wearing. But I am feeling less anxious now that we are back to a normal life.
I guess I need to share more photos!
For reference I am adding Month 3:

and Month 4:
And... here we are today:
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| I would say it is a full 3 inches at this point. |
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| A rare photo of it up. |
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| Indoor lighting shows that pesky 'old color' is an even lighter brown now. |
Yup - that is my hair. The hair I was born with and destined to have.
I am struggling mostly right now with the cut of my hair and the curls than I am the color.
I have grown to like the white - but there is this constant nagging going on that I should not be wearing my hair 'long and curly' if I choose to have its natural color. Like I am 'supposed' to cut it shorter thing. But that is not what I want to do. The curls in my hair can look pretty unruly with the crazy whites on some days. And why do women with the women I see with gorgeous white hair always have that smooth hair?
I committed years ago to being a curly girl - not blow drying/ironing, I only use SLS free shampoos and water soluble products in my hair. I am not sure I can abandon that right now.
SO I spend a lot of time going over my options to include:
- go back to color (NO!)
- cut it shorter (NO!)
- keep having frequent trims and keeping the current style
- making a change but keeping the length - maybe bangs again
- stop wearing it curly - and ironing it more (not comfortable with that!!)
- keep it the same, wait and see
- and my favorite: stop worrying about all this - it is JUST hair.
When I start to feel anxious about this journey I like to go here:
Going Gray Looking Great and then I do not feel so alone in this big world of colored hair. I am following along with these ladies.
On a positive note - I do not miss the blistery bumps that hair color caused on my skin. Or having to spend a day removing the hairdye off my hairline after a color. I have enjoyed having more money to spend on other things. I recently starting taking photography classes. That's much more fun than sitting in a salon! I plan to go back to the gym soon too.
While my birthday passes by this month I am hoping to not be fixated on how I look but rather on how I feel.
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A full blend of white, dark brown and light brown.
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Thanks for reading along!!
Leave a comment to tell me how you feel about YOUR white/gray hair - have you thought about growing it out?